Light Up My World

2011-12-08T07:22:00.001+08:00

its me against the world. I felt that I'm all alone here. Please help me )':

2011-10-05T08:59:00.000+08:00

I will get over you. I promise.

I am falling apart

2011-09-25T15:23:00.002+08:00

)':

Im supposed to meet my NYP friends for a slacking session. But sorry you guys. Sorry Danish ):

2011-09-24T14:08:00.004+08:00

Of all pictures we took, i like this the best.

I really miss you, Z. You were the first guy I badly wanted to spend my life with. Maybe that is the problem with me. I am too selfish. I was a selfish gf. I want YOU for no one else but myself. I don't want anyone else to to try to intervene or come between you and me. I never cared about your feelings. I am just too engrossed in loving you and molding our relationship but never thought about whether you wanted me to be in your future. Yes, i am that selfish.

I used the word 'breakup' many times. Too many till it came true. If i had known that you were giving up on me, I wouldn't have say it. I'll just keep quiet and bear all the pains i had suffered. But the reason I used that word often is because I just want you to want me as much as I want you. That is all. And sometimes, i am just too afraid to care for you for fear that you dont care for me at all. If love had an equation and you knew the solution, maybe we wouldnt hurt each other, maybe we wouldnt misunderstand each other and maybe we could just love.

I believe, us breaking up was not all just because of me. It was because of you too. It wasn't fair. You know what I am talking about. Somehow, i believe what i am going through is karma. Ive hurt someone like this too, and now it hurts me right back. Sigh. I wish this could stop. I wish that it didnt even start with you. You still mean everything to me, it's just not worth the fight anymore knowing you've given up and you dont love me as much as I love you.

I could still remember the words you said to me. You promised me, you will never leave me. You will never give up on me and that you will love me until the end of time. You even said to me "when i want to give up on you, remind me again those words that i had just promised you''. It was so perfect at that moment. But now, it was all just a scam and pretending isnt it?

I dont believe that true love exist anymore. Cause love is just like falling down. In the end, you are left with hurt, scarred and with the memory of it forever. What a ride. 3 different guys, 3 different heartbreaks. I seemed to be falling in love with the wrong guy everytime.

So now, imma have to hold my head up high, blink away the tears and just say goodbye. And from now, when you think of me, just remember that I could have been the best thing that you ever had.

Goodbye Zahid. You were the best.

The past. (Click on it.)

2011-09-23T18:56:00.000+08:00

2011-09-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

i am blind.

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Dear God, please let me be strong. I need that.

2011-09-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

am i doing the right thing, by patching up with him?
give me some guidance, God.

i am crying every now and then because of him. he has changed.

2011-08-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

sakit hati ah )':

exam is like another 3 hrs and i didnt even study a single shit.
Thanks z. you ruined everything.

2011-08-11T01:04:00.001+08:00

Not-so-awesome birthday this year. Hais.

2011-08-02T11:08:00.001+08:00

WHAT KIND OF A BF WHO SLEPT WHILE TEXTING WHEN HE'S GF IS SICKKK!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-14T04:13:00.002+08:00

dear diary,

i never get to tell him how im feeling. im really hurt deep inside me. its just like a knife, stabbing right through your heart. i never get to tell him how much he meant to me before he went off to sleep. i never get to tell him what i want from him. i never get to tell him that the only one who can make me feel better is none other than z. its me. its me who is in dipshit. its me who causes the breakup. its me who causes him to have less family-spending time. it has always been me.

Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangatku. Tenangkan lah hati dan fikirkan ku ini. )':

im all alone, once again.

its almost 420. another 2 hours and i have to get ready for school. guess im not going to sleep. i hope you have a good rest, z.

i love you.

2011-07-14T02:09:00.003+08:00

its 2:09 am. Me and z patched up. But now, everything i thought it would be just goes horribly wrong. I have to get used to his 'friends-first-before-gf' rule. Hais. We were supposed to go online but he hasnt come online since 1 am cause he's busy with his friends outside.

Dear Z, please hear out my cries. Im really hurting deep inside but I dont want to tell you cause Im afraid you would leave me again. Please, i beg you.. to just think about my feelings for once. Thats all im asking from you.. )':

2011-06-16T00:26:00.002+08:00

Dear diary, i seriously need to pour out my feelings. I am having a rough time with Z. He is such an idiot. My ego, he cant stand it. But when it comes to his ego, i close one eye and thought to myself 'maybe he is like that. cant change him'. I am at worst right now. Mummy and daddy fighting again and because of this, i vent my anger towards him and throwing all kinds of nasty comments about his family. He cant accept it and he wants to break up with me. Is this fair? After what i did for him? Closing an eye just to make this relationship work? The answer is no, IT IS NOT FAIR AT ALL. Like what my friends say, he dont deserve me. Maybe its true but i decided not to take heed any of my friend's advice. Kalau ikutkan ego, ive dumped him long time ago. In this end, this is what i get ):

Thanks, Z. You broke my heart, again. )':

perfect two

2010-08-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Gua sayang sangat sama lu der! ^^

2010-08-07T16:47:00.005+08:00

Mom bought me this Paris Hilton Just Me perfume for my advance birthday. Wooooot! First time, first time! Sugar right my mom. Ibuuu, sorry for shouting at ya . Heehee. I promise I will change. Saaaaayang ibu! Haha.

I found a new guy that makes me go gaga. HAHA. Joe Brooks, so cute!

2010-08-06T23:01:00.003+08:00

Dear Muhd Aidil.

Look at these photos. Look at how happy we were. Yes, I did cry for you. There are things that we don’t want to happen, but have to accept. The saddest thing is that we fell in love with one another, only to find out in the very end that we weren’t meant to be together. There is only one thing that bothers me and kept me questioning. Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean to them? You did great shits to me - intentional or not, I kept on fighting. You left so many deep scars in my heart and up till now, I am still not sure how the hell I was able to keep holding on for you. Whatever million words you said to me now, will never bring us back together. Cause relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than hurting yourself by putting them back together. What is broken is broken. I would rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it. It’s over. Thanks for the bitter and sweet memories you’d given to me. You make me laugh, you make me cry. There’s still that little love from me to you, please don’t ask me why. Please, do not forget me. We’ll meet again, somehow. I hope you’re doing good in school. Face the future from now on instead of getting stuck in the past. Im sure, there are much more better girls out there that deserve you more than me. I still miss you, Muhd Aidil.

No more words, no more lies. Let it go before it dies. Hear the words, hear the pain. The last of love ends in vain. Sweet from the start, bitter in the end. Hearts will break, they never bend.

Along came this guy. I don’t know how and why it happened, but he somehow stole my heart. I Love You, Mohd Zahid Bin Dzuraimy. I believe, you will be my last and my only one. Insyallah. There, I’ve said it. Phew.

2010-07-30T12:49:00.003+08:00

Me: Ibu, semalam afiqah termimpi pasal Dajjal bu.
Ibu: Kaw tu Dajjal, kaw tak tahu?

She called me that because she was still angry about me quitting school. Haiz. Sucks. I felt like my heart's just being stabbed with a knife. Sakit hati betul. Aigoo. Ibu ibu.

I always have this strange dream. Whats happening to me? Hahah. Dont macam macam uh.

Kite-flying.

2010-07-24T01:54:00.008+08:00

Heyho! Yesterday was fun fun fun!

Wanted to accompany Phyna to the doctor's first cause she wasn't feeling too good. But by the time I reached there, she finished her appointment with the doctor. Haha! So took the camera, went home and watched Rocky 4 for a while. Huhu. Keh info tak perlu. Ha. Met up with Zayid and his little brother, Danish under my void deck. His brother is so frigging cute la, my gosh. Malu malu kucing. He was trying his best not to have any eye contacts with me. Wahaha. Okay so we trained down to Marina Barrage. Fly kite. Battery camera buat hal. So had to use Zayid's pathetic phone camera that has no flash. Wahah. At 7, we left the place and trained back to Tampines. Had Mac for my lunch and dinner ): Then Zayid sent Danish home first before sending me home.

Had a great day. Lets do it again some time! ^^

2010-07-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

Omo omo. Im in love with this movie like fcuk la okay.

2010-07-18T08:28:00.005+08:00

Last friday, went out with bff. Actually I was supposed to work 1 to 9 on friday. But I told eric manager that im going out with my mom. So I worked only 4 hrs that day. Haha. And he gave me that look when I punched out my card. But who cares. Ive informed Arkar beforehand sia.

Soooo, after work i cabbed down to Bedok Interchange. Met up with Siti and Nad first and bought some crackersxz. Siti and I chose the Big Bird cake for Fathima cause I remember back in the sec schoool days, she had a sesame street pencil case. Sekarang sudah besar la dia kan. Haha. Moving onn, trained down to vivo to meet the rest. Had potluck for dinner, chilling/catching up and photography session at the rooftop. It was a simple yet ihadafuckinggoodday outing. There was just laughters all the way. Haha. My worries and problems just stopped racing through my mind when Im with them. Cheywah. Heh.

Okay i gotta get ready for work now. Adios amigos.

My love life is in a mess. But ive no intention on fixing it. Haixzs.

2010-07-13T17:53:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday To Muhd Khairul Azhar Bin Salleh.

An irritating brother, who always sneaks around in my room to steal my money/ciggies whenever im asleep or when im not in my room. And when I caught him red-handed, he would just smile to me and walk away as if none of this happened. Hahaha. Annoying kann. Despite you being our family theif, i still love you my brother! Wah seh. Happy 19th Birthday and stay happy. Last long with Finah.

):

2010-07-11T14:01:00.003+08:00

2010-07-09T13:10:00.003+08:00

Tlah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku

Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karna kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya
Ive hurt someone.

~~Sob sob.~~

2010-07-05T18:52:00.008+08:00

Hello dear readers. Today's my off day. So i grab this chance to go out with my mom again. I had my full-face threading. Mom had her facial treatment. Mangkok, punya la sakit! Tabole angsxzs. Seriously. Try pulling out the hairs on your face and you get what i mean. Bulu roma aku pun dia tarik. Haha. Cant do anything. Airmata hanya mampu meleleh di pipiku yang gebu. Hehehe.

The owner of the shop told me i can become her model to showcase her products. Haha! Kembang kembang! Tak sekembang _____. Hah! You know what i mean.

Heartless soul.

2010-07-03T16:27:00.004+08:00

26 June:

Had my SIA interview together with Phyna. If ure my loyal reader (haha. tkda org baca la kan) , I posted a picture of an airstewardess on my previous blog, hoping to become like her in the few years to come. And now, its shattered! Hahah! All because of my walk. I passed the first 2 rounds of the interview, but when it comes to the 3rd round, they said i walk like a robot (limping). Aigoo. Wasted siooool.

30 July:

Ini hari tak akan ku lupakan. This fcuking bitch in my workplace (head chef) buat perangai. I knew she hated me, just because i did some minor mistakes during work few weeks ago. Okay so here's the story. It was really busy during lunch. I was the runner. There was no one else. Only me. Eric and Arkar came late to work, Aidil & MY helped me for a little while then popped in back to do cashier. Then theres this group of 11-12 people ordered 4 sets of 4pc wings. So they should get a total of 16 wings altogether. I was busy clearing up the plates and serving the foods when Aidil asked me whether that group of people get their wings yet or not. I told him they have not get their last set of wings. Then Aidil said 'Why never ask from the chef? The customers have been waiting'. Then the head chef said 'This girl ah, one day i confirm scold her one.' Wah naaabei! It was busy like fuck, and how am i supposed to do two things at one time, you fucking tell me now. You stupid fucking dipshit. Haha. And hello, shouldnt it be the chef's fault that they forgot to fry the chicken wings? How is it become my fault eh? After she said liddat, aku tgk dia, aku jeling. Perangai kepala pantat. And then, she complained to Arkar that I always never keep the garlic bread. Fucker. Kalau nmpk dgn dua2 mata sendiri takpe tau. Ini meh tuduh semarang aja sia! Wah, aku type gini je da bingit. Pkm peh pompan. -.-

1st July:

The Silkair interview. Haha. Their question was 'Talk about yourself, and share with us if you know a thing or two about Silkair, that would be great'. Something liddat la. I already expected that question for the first round interview and ive practiced alot of times on what to say the day before. Sekaliiii, tergagap pula. Haha. Oh well, in my group, only one made it. Itu pun kaki tempang. How the interviewer pilih orang pun tak tahu. Walaoway. Tkpa tkpa. I will try again. Huhu. After the interview, i went out with zayid. Went to vivo. Watched Toy Story 3. A fcuking awesome movie! Dan lepas itu, kita slack aja. Talk and joke, talk and joke. Haha. Fun! Had a great day with him la siar. Winkwink.

2nd July:

Afic's belated birthday celebration. It was awesome walaupun plan nakat cockup all because of me. Sorry guys. Haha. Sooooo, i met wal and feeq around 2 plus and we headed to the tamp polyclinic cause feeq wanted to take an mc. Bought the cake, and we went to dhoby ghaut. Told the Mad Jack's crew to surprise afic with a cake after we had our dinner. The dudes played pool for a while and about 7, we head back to Mad Jack. Had a scrumptious dinner. Aftwhich, i went to tell the crew that they can clear the plates and serve the cake now. Sekali, Afic, Feeq and Hady went to the toilet. They already light up the candles and brought the cake to our table. Wal then told them to bring in the cake for another 5 more minutes. Paiseh siaa. Okay skip! Had cake and we watch the Twilight movie. It's sad that Nab had to go home early when she already paid for the tix. It's okay la eh. We'll hang out again some other day. Okay, look below. Birthday boy and his good-boy face :D

2010-06-17T16:10:00.006+08:00

These was taken on last saturday. Had a great day! The karate kid movie was superrrb. Not only that ,Feeq & Hady treated me to kfc and shisha. I owe you alot la sioool. Haha. Thanks!

Aigoo, i miss those dudes, i miss bff, i miss you. We all enjoy once i get my pay okay? Hehh.

Okay, wanna shower. Take care.

2010-06-16T04:08:00.001+08:00

i feel stupid, really.

fuck everyone.

2010-06-12T15:28:00.004+08:00

Wassssssup brooo! Heh. My off day today. Happy happy! Been working like hell siak. Worked long hours, plus covering for people lagi. Confirm satu hari jatuh sakit rabak punya. Lagipun, i wanna quit this job already. Tunggu time aja. Satu satu macam kepala punat.

Keh so now currently waiting for Hady's text so that i can go out and meet him & Feeq in the bus. We're going Vivo today. But wal and afiq cant come. Kalau tidak, confirm kecohhh.

And that guy going to kl next week. Rabakxzs. Gua disappointed ah dgn lu nowadays. Haiz.

Hady just text-ed me! Keh byee! Will update again when i feel like it. Heh.

2010-06-02T14:31:00.004+08:00

*Drool* Hahhaahhaha. Mangkok, punya la cute! Haha. Pretty boy sia. I have his pictures in my phone too! Obsessed eh.

Okay, sorry guys for the short MIA. Lately family macam harsh gtu dgn aku. But its okay uh. I believe they'll soon start talking to me like they usually did. Time will tell. Huhu. Anw, problems keep coming to me lah seh! I think because i never solat. Aiyo, apa nak jadi.

By the way, i wanna watch The Last Song. Im not a big fan of Miley Cyrus. In fact, i hate her. I hate everything about her. Haha. But ive watched the trailer and its awesome! Love movie ^^ Yeap! And its NOT a gay movie eh.

Work has been tiring. Wo hen lei eh. Wo pu yao ji juo kong. But what to do, need money to support myself. Cause mom's not gonna give me anymore money. She said 'quit school, then be independent'. But im only 18 pe. Haiz. Apala nasibku. Tidak mengapa. My fault also.

Keh bye.

2010-05-19T20:32:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's after-work ..

Philip: You know ah?

Me: Know what?

Philip: Tsk. You know ah?

Me: Know whattt?

Philip: You know?

Me & Cp: KNOW WHAT?!!!

... ... ... ...

Philip: Eh you the one who put ah?

CP: Put what?

Philip: You put rightt?

CP: PUT WHAT?!

He seriously an annoying fellow. Hahaha. He never finishes his sentence but expect us to understand what he tryna say. Stupid right? Haha. But he's a funny guy la, even though he's a little weird .. in a good way. You know what, he said i have this indian smell that he hates. Bloody idiot. Indian magao.

Chen Pei is such a sweet-heart la okay. She accompanied me to school today, despite her weariness. She is such a good friend. She's my 2nd best friend in pastamania okay. Mess with her, mess with me. CHEY! Fake. Haha.

I dont know what to do. But I want this matter to be over. Quick.

2010-05-18T09:07:00.002+08:00

Di dirimu aku menemukan
Yang mencintaiku
Yang menyayangiku
Di dirimu aku ketakutan
Kau biarkanku
Kau tinggalkanku

Bila kamu tak lagi denganku
Ku tak tahu apa ‘tuk jalani hidupku
Bila memang kau pergi dariku
Ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

Mengertikah kau siang malamku
Dan tangis tawaku
Kau semua hidupku
Pandang aku pandanglah hatiku
Aku tak mampu melangkah tanpamu

Bukan ku tak punya harga diri
Tapi dirimu begitu berarti
Kaulah nafasku engkau harga diriku
Mengerti aku….

[Dont assume anything ehh. Awesomeeeeee song. Jiwang buat seketika. Heh.]
I miss my bff.

2010-05-08T18:35:00.008+08:00

Had a tough week. From lectures to scoldings to beatings -.- Okay, cakap sini habis sini eh. I feel like shit nowadays. Ive been a really bad friend and a bad daughter. Keh tknk emo banyak uh. I just wanna say sorry to all those ive caused countless troubles and I promise I work hard starting from today. I wanna start praying soon. Hahaha. Yessss, i know i said that the last time. But what happened eh. Semangat lima minit aja. Keh choy choy. If my brother can start praying, why cant I? Heh. Goodgirl.

I gotta blog what happen yesterday. I skipped school. And the chairman of my course called my mom up and yeahp, thanks alot eh Mr Leong. Hah. He wants to meet me on monday regarding my poor attendance. Keh skip. Bought wal's present then sheesha-ed with Nad, Feeq, Wal, Zahid, Afiq & Hady. And im telling you, the weather was killing me. I constantly sweat like a pig. At 5 plus, Nad Zahid and I met up with the rest of my workmates at Bedok Mac. We pastamaniacs planned to go Night Safari buut, due to unforeseen circumstances many ppl werent able to make it and therefore had to change the whole plan. Moodswing strike soon after. Waited for Sufi for nearly an hour plus. Then this stupid Faridth sengaja waste time talking to this salesman regarding some face cream. Macam tak perlu kan? We had to miss two bus because of him! Keh nehmind. Haha, whats over is over. Then head to east coast, had dinner and just chilled. Well actually, this wasnt what I had in mind. But oh well, i had fun though (:

Then Chen Pei called me, saying that my mom called my workplace a few times, asking about my whereabouts. Then she can even told Arkar that im not gonna work for few weeks after my dad has cooled down. Apa siaa. Now like the whole pastamania know i wanna quit school. Mana mo letak muka gua. Haiyoh. Keh skip. Since i know im gonna get a beating from my dad, i decided to ton with the kaki lepakxzs (Wal and gang), hoping he will cool down by the time i get home. At 11 plus, followed zahid under his block (AND NOT his home eh) while waiting for him to shower and get changed. So we met up with the rest, and we head down to swarm by bicycle. Of course luhh, aku tumpang orang kan. Masing masing sumpah minta kene spank. Aku tumpang sesapa, drg kata penat la, tayar pancet la. Walaoway. Its not as if i weigh hundred pound sia. Haha. Get to ride with him, then takpa la. haahahha.

Swarm. I think, thats the scariest among all places siool. Heard some strange noises but thank God i didnt see 'anything' .. Okay. Good. Then this one part Afiq was like shouting 'Eh jalan! Jalan!'. Mangkok. Apa lagi, semua orang angkat kaki uh. I was holding to wal's hand and dia tergamak tgl aku belakang. Hahah. Nasib baik ni Afiq prank -.-

So afterwhich head back to wal's place and slack until 730am. Wal then accompanied me to my grandma's house. Told grandma and my aunt about my problem. I rest my eyes for a while and when I woke up, my parents were there. Shocked sekejap. And then, you have to guess what happen ^^

Sorry BFF for not able to go to siti's birthday celebration. I'll make it up to you guys, somehow. Im so sorry.

2010-05-03T11:42:00.004+08:00

I didnt go to school for the whole week. I feel like quitting school already sia. Im just not happy there. I dread going to school every morning. Its like I have to force myself to attend the shitty lessons and then make myself completely into a laughing stock for the whole class to see during presentations. I'll stutter when im nervous, and when im nervous, i'll start to stutter. Hahah. Bingit pe. Nabei teng teng. Not only that, the distance from my house to school .. Yeap, not happy at all.

And I know everyone around me kinda disappointed with my decision. Especially my parents. I know they've worked hard to support me. But haiyaa. Im not happy in that school luhh. Buat apa pergi skola kalau dah tidak ada hati lagi kan kan kan? Because of this, I had a huge fight with my mom yesterday. I accidentally used coarse language on her ): Sorry ibu. But why cant parents seem to understand eh? Ive done everything they told me to. But cant they let me decide on this, for once? Its not like as if im quitting school for good. I just want to change school, thats all. Its that even hard?

& Dominic, im sorry i didnt go school today. I know you are disappointed, same goes to my any other close friends. You know who you are. Haha. Im still trying to figure out what I wanna do. Sorry for being such a burden to you guys. Ahh. Keh dont want to talk about it already. Otak cramp, perut pun cramp. Keh bye.

2010-04-17T11:54:00.012+08:00

Hey hey! Its Pastamaniacs day out. Haaa. Okay, so firstly Zahid and Rizal were being kind enough to pick me up after school since i was afraid of taking the train, ALONE. Call me kental, or whatever. I dont care. Im afraid, okay? Hahaha. So we trained down to bugis and met up with Nad. Bought 4 tix to Shutter Island movie and it was suPeRbBbB!! Haha. I really like the storyline. They were like playing with our minds sia, making our mind confused and stuff. Haha, but it was nice. Leonardo is crazy, thats what i think. Afterwhich, meet up with Taufiq abd we went to Arab street and shisha-ed. Bought a combo plate (which im not satisfied) that cost $11. The food was nice but it was small. The plate is similar to 10 inch pizza plate in Pastamania. Yabeda Yabeduu, head home and was totally shagged.

Okayyy, so how was school. School's fine. We had to do presentation EVERYDAY. For scaredies like me, of course i find it difficult. I did make friends with my classmates. But didnt really talk much with them. My class made up of mainly chinese and a few of malays. Chinese, as you all know, are the arrogant type. Ntah eh. Thats what i thought. Every idea i contribute, they didnt seem to like it. Fuck them uh. Cant wait for the next semester. Haha. Get new classmates. Woot. And not only that, we had to do reflection journal every schooling days and had to pass them up before 11:59. HaiZzZ. Pathetic much.

2010-04-10T13:27:00.003+08:00

I had my School Of Hospitality (a.k.a School's Only Hope) pre-orientation just now. It was okay. It was only fun at some parts. Like playing games, getting to know my new coursemate and etc. But the rest, it was damn boring. Haiya. After the pre-orientation camp ended, i was shagged. I slept a while in the bus otw home sia.

Soooo, did i make any new friends yesterday? Well i did, kind of. I mean, we talk a lil bit here and there. Then there's this chinese girl ask me 'Are you a minah?'. I was startled sia. So i replied 'NO, im not.' Then we both laugh our heads off. What a question to be asked kann. Haha. But im kinda curious who my classmates for semester 1 will be. I hope they're friendly. Oh, i heard that my classmates are not my coursemates. It's like we'll be mixed with different people who took different course as mine. Anddd, they'll change classmates for every semester. Gerek? Haha, hope so.

2010-04-08T22:21:00.011+08:00

CLASH OF THE TITANS @ CATHAY --> SHISHA @ HAJI LANE

Simply awesome, cause they rock.

2010-03-30T23:00:00.007+08:00

Hey hey hey! Hahah. Im damn happy today. Finally get to meet gfs after months tidak dengar berita. But it kinda end early though. Nehmind la eh. As long i get to meetup with them. Rindu rasa di hati oi. Hahaaaa.

So i woke up damn late today. Luckily Nad msged me at 1. Supposed to meet her at 2 plus at eunos mrt. If not .. you know. But i was still late anw. Hehhe. Went out of the house at 230 and bused down to eunos to meet nad. When boarding the train, i realized that i forgot to take the $30 that mom left on the table. How annoying was that. I nearly made up my mind not to go on with the outing. Buut, nad became my life saver. Heheh. She was being kind enough to belanja me movie plus meal. ^^ Thanks buddyyy! Hahaha. So anyway, we waited for the rest at paya lebar. And then we trained down to city hall. Had lunch and webcam session at BK. Hoho. Pictures will soon be uploaded. Then booked tix to the movie 'When In Rome'. Meanwhile, played bowling.

Movie was alright. 4.3 out of 5 for the movie. Haha, the main actor dashing siaa. HAHA. I loike. After that, home sweet home. We should have more outings bff! Gonna miss you guys once school starts.

2010-03-28T16:13:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey. Back for another update! See, i didnt leave my blog dead after all. Hehe.

Yesterday, i checked my phone. It was 11am. Thought of getting up at 12pm. Sekali... pejam celik pejam celik it was already 1pm! Supposed to meet up with Shawal and Taufeeq at bedok mrt at 2. Haha. Gabrah sia. Then i msged shawal saying i just got up and told him to meet me at 230 instead. Cause i havent pick on what clothes to wear for that day. Havent iron. Havent eat. Havent bath! Hahaha. Rabak. Sooo, met shawal and taufeeq arnd 230 and trained down to dohby ghaut. Had lunch at LJs plaza singapura. Nabilah joined us soon after. Then booked tix to the movie; Diary Of A Wimpy Kid. Meanwhile, played arcade. Haha. Standard uh. Like playing the arcade nowadays. Haaaha.

So the movie was okay, funny. Would rate it 4 out 5. After that, we meetup with Hady at city hall. Then bused down to Hort Park. It was already night. So, theres nothing much there. Sobsob. Aftwhich, bid nabilah goodbye then went to the mansion located at Henderson Waves. Damn scary. Bulu roma ternaik jap sia. Slack awhile at henderson waves then at 11, we head home. While going down the flight of stairs, those three dudes actually pranked me. I was infront of them, walking confident2. Then out of a sudden, i heard someone laughed loudly like kakak. It was them uh. I was damn shocked. I cover my ears and ran behind them. Hahahah. Like shit sia they all. Haha, can laugh at me somemore.

Haha, it was awesome though. Kaki gerek! Whooo. I cant wait for tuesday. I hope everyone (bff) can make it to the outing. Cherios.

2010-03-23T12:36:00.003+08:00

Sudah lama tidak update blog. Hehh. Theres alot of stuff to be updated but im lazy to update them all. Lets just blog about yesterday keh.

I went out with this shawty dude yesterday. He was my primary schoolmate. Firdaous is his name. He's just a friend hor. Dont assume anything. So, we met at bedok interchange at around 3. Head to vivo and watched Green Zone. And then to Arab st. Thats where we kinda .. argued. Hahaha. He wanted to sheesha at his workplace (Marhaba), along with his friends. I mean like, its supposed to be us two only, but he wanna meetup with his friends as well. Tak ke bingit like that ? I told him, if he wanna meetup with his friends, i might as well go home. Ha, then we had a talk somewhere private. Then we cooled down and start joking with one another. Had dinner at Banquet. I didnt eat, cause ..not hungry. Hah. Then head back to arab st and sheeshaed at Nasrin Restaurant. At 11, head home.

So overall, it was fun. Though we didnt do anything much, we stilll had fun talking and joking with each other. No pictures. Sad. Lol. He wanted to take a pic with me, but muke tgh masai siaa. -.- Keh la bye. Will update again soon. (:

2010-02-22T02:09:00.003+08:00

Damn these mosquitos. I cant sleep because of it. Itchy here, itchy there. Na bei. Haha. I dont know why but i seemed to like saying that nabei word. Must have influenced by my workmates. Sheesh.

Keh cut the crapp. Heyhey. Apologies for the dead blog. Ive been real busy with work lately. Had only a day off last monday. So i was working from tuesday till sunday. So didnt get to update. And guess what? Im working later at 4pm till closing. That means, ive been working 7 days straight. Wow. You bet im tired! Tired of getting a scolding from the manager. Shit sia they all. Time busy aja, then vent anger on me. Haiz. Like macam kene tuuuuuuut aja.

Yesterday worked 5 to 9. But since i wanna learn closing inside, i decided to stay out and learn a thing or two from Chen Pei. Rizal, Zahid, Chen Pei & Jorge were kind enough to wait for me. Heheh. Afterwhich slack with them and took the last bus home. Anyway, i was assigned cashier today. Luckily there was no excess or shortage of money. Arkar praised me ^^. But before that, he was damn pissed off with me cause i didnt learn the ingredients used for each and every pasta/pizza. So i guess i better start remembering all the ingredients later, after i get some beauty sleep ^^ See, schooling must study. Work also must study. Is there anything that does not require any studying?! Haha.

Moving on. Me & Atyra planned for a gfs outing. So long already never see them. I miss them truckloadssss. No one can beat the BFF group sia. HAHA. All busy with their work, including me. Heh. Butttt, it seems like everyone have their different off days. How to plan uh.

By the way, sorry to Shawal and Taufeeq for not replying any of your msges. I was damn tired plus really busy nowadays. I'll text you guys soon hor. *Peace sign*

2010-02-16T20:16:00.005+08:00

Today working 12 to 6. I stayed another hour, just for them. Heheh. Actually dorang kurang asam tau. I wanna stay and help them. Boring uh going home so soon. I wanna wipe plates for them but Arkar told me to go home. Then i took out parsley and start plucking. Then xinxing told me 'Eh nvm, this one i do. You go home.' And Munim also say 'Haha. Ya lah, you go home la'. Then i told them sad story ah, saying 'You guys dont need me here ah? Sad sia. I go home ah.' Then the staffs went 'Alalala, do la, do la.' Siak je. Hah, i already semangat wanna help, then they dont want me there. Pfft.

Oh yah. Theres this one time Munim made an extra mango smoothie. It was his. Then he went for a smoke break. Aidil came in the kitchen and asked me about the mango smoothie. I told him it was munim's. We both took a sip of the mango smoothie and you know what happen next? Aidil put 2 teaspoon of salt inside the drink. Hahahha. I burst out laughing. I tried tasting the mango smoothie and im telling you, i t was super salty! Even Arkar and Xinxing kena by that prank. Then, munim came back and aidil told him to finish the mango smoothie. He took a damn bloody big sip from it. Hahhahaha. You should have seen his reaction sia. Walaoway. Both of us laughed like mad cow sia in the kitchen. Kuat gila! Walaoway.

I regret replying Aidil's (ex) msg. At first he was asking me about my well-being. I thought he was just being friendly. So, i replied back. And when i did not reply his msg for about 5 minutes, he smsed again and again and again. Haiyo. Malas uh nak layan. And now, his mom msg me. Still the same old Aidil. Desperado. Banyak pompan pe kaw boleh cari. Bila dengan aku tk tahu nak appreciate. Bleh bobal pasal pompan lain lagi biler dgn aku. Crazy man. I finally realized, i love being single. Stress-free from all those complicating relationships. Ada betul? ^^

2010-02-15T11:45:00.002+08:00

Got attachment at Harbourfront centre. 5 to 10. It was damn boring. Only some parts aje fun. Like for example, there's a cute cook over there. Heheh. He asked me alot of random questions such as 'You malay uh?' And as usual, i said 'im half portugese'. Luckily that cook knew i was fooling around, unlike someone. Yeah, you know who you are. HAHA. Keh moving on, i noticed thar outlet's operation is different than ours. Theirs a lil bit slack. Like for example, in my outlet, we put parsley in every dish, including the snacks. But in the harbourfront oulet, they didnt put any. && we wore gloves and mask if we're cleaning the tobasco, but the manager in hbf really slack one. He only ask us to wear gloves. Whoa. If we were to do that in our outlet, confirm kena maki! Hmm, what else. Any people that gets on my nerve? Nah. Not really, everyone's friendly except for one. Kerek gila. Haha, mentang2 can talk mandarine then sengaja wanna talk mandarine infront of me.

So while working, Taufeeq and Shawal came to visit. Very sebok you know they all. Hahaha. After we get off work at 10, we joined them for supper at macs. Me & my mcChicken meal as usual. Afterwhich, we lepak-ed at vivo rooftop. Talk talk, laugh laugh, push push Taufeeq. Hahahaha. Then at 1145 we chiow. Took 65 home. Otw, faizal maszaim & gang board the bus and sat near where we were seating. They were all drunk and very noisy. One even puke in the bus. Perangai dog sia. Then they disturbed Nad and me. When I stood up, the guy beside me said 'Damn girl.' Berkali2 sia. Irritating buduuu. Haiya whats past is past. Buat apa mengamuk dgn orang bodoh ehhh ;P

2010-02-13T15:12:00.003+08:00

Wednesday:
Aku paitaooooo. Hahah. Sorry sorry. Intially had an outing with Nad, Shawal, Afiq, Taufeeq & Hady to the OCH. But Chen Pei called me last minute saying that they seriously in need of staffs. Two staff werent able to make it. So irresponsible sia they all. Because of them, aku yang kene tarik. Cb. Then Arkar told me sad story sume. I melt lor. Then after i agreed on helping them, Arkar told me 'Why dont you bring your friends to PP. Walk2 here. Or bring them to Pastamania. If guys, i dont want. Hahaha'. Siaak je. Hahah.

Thursday:
Work was boring. Eric was incharge of the restaurant for the first few hours. Luckily Arkar came. Haha. I dont know why la eh. I prefer Arkar rather than Aidil and Eric. Im not scared uh whenever he scold me. I mean, i dont take it too hard. Heheh. Then Chen Pei came (she's not working) and waited for me to knock off work at 5. Heh. Jorge and her asked me to tag along to Bugis but since i already made plans with my friends, i decided to turn them down. Nanti paitao lagi kan kan. Haha. Da nickname jadi Paitao girl. Hahah. So went to OCH at about 830 pm. It was in a total darkness. Cant really see anything. Tktahu eh. I always imagine the thing walking behind me, following me. Thats why i was so scaredddd. I was like holding any hands that i could grab on. Buttt.. theres one time... Ahh nevermind. *Smileeee* Aft that, grabbed a bite and head home. Reached home at about 12 am.

Friday:
Had another outing with them but this time without Nad & Afiq. Shawal also lie to me saying everyone will be coming laa, drg takut nak paitao boss la. Walaoway. Hahaha. So i met Shawal first at Bugis since i wanted to buy a dress for myself. Then met up with Taufeeq. Had lunch at Tong Seng. Then jmpa Hady. Hady menses. Haha. Moodswing sia he. Bought tix to Percy Jackson movie. Only now i realised the character has the same name as my cat. Haha. While waiting, played the arcade. So catched the Percy Jackson movie at Iluma. I find the movie a little bit crap. No offence, shawal. Heheh. But i find the leading actor cute though. Sebiji macam Zac Efron. Only that he's cuter. Hahha. After that, planning to sheesha but idk what happened, they suddenly said they wanna go swarm. Go swarm, walk here walk there. Nothing much. I find that OCH is wayyy scarier than that place. Aiyo thambi. Then lepak2, shared story & made jokes. Aku laa yang bahan kacau for that day. She male sume terkeluar. Kurang asam punya anak anak. Haha. Reached home at 1100. When i reached home, i suddenly realise my right eye kene tembel. Luckily sekarang da okay sikit.

I woke up in the middle of the night. I was damn thirsty. I wanna go out to the kitchen and grab a milk. But i was scared siaa. Nie uh Shawal nye pasal. Takut takut kan orang. He told me got a small 5 year old kid playing with the bedroom door and it got long tounge and stuff liddat. Mana orang tidak takut siaaa. Sampai orang pun terbawa2. So i called him and we talked until 6 am. Then my parents woke up and only then i can sleep. Well. Hehe.

Chen Pei invited me to go KTV later at night. Hahaha.

2010-02-10T12:58:00.003+08:00

I seriously hate yesterday work. I was assigned cashier yesterday. Everything was fine & perfectly normal. All of us were joking with one another in the kitchen. Then at 7-8 pm, restaurant was flooded with customers. You know when i see alot of customers, i get kanchiong and my headache will come on off on off. I screwed up customers orders and stuff. Then out of a sudden Aidil kicked my leg (like kick softly) and told chen pei "Haiyo. Luckily xinxing have. If not i scold her rabak already!'. He was literally shouting sia. This wasnt the first time he scolded me. This was like almost the third time. Mana hati pmpn tak tersinggung sia. Then it makes me no mood lor. Chen Pei keep asking me 'You were laughing and now why suddenly your face black2 one?'.

Then, of course being a cashier should take responsibility if any money goes missing. I lost $10. Haixxx. I clearly remembered that Aidil took that $10 from the cashier before this incident. But when i msged him, he said he paid already and had put the $10 back into the cashier. Idk if its real or not uh. Cause i didnt even see him putting the money back. Oh well, he's the manager right. Why am i doubting him. But he can be very nice at times. Like earlier yesterday i complained to him that jorge messes with my head and i got headache, he go and 'rembat' jorge. And he paid that $10 for me. Haizzz. Manusia manusia. Very hard to read!

After i got home, chat with Chen Pei at fb. She got a seriously interesting story to share with me. And i also very interested to know. Haha. Because of her, i got my mood back. Haha.

2010-02-07T03:42:00.006+08:00

Time Check: 3.42 am.

I know ive not been updating regularly. I feel bored, so i on the comp. But when im already on it, i feel bored too. Wanna update, but lazy siar.

So that picture above was yesterday. Sempat ambil gambar eh. MY's leaving for China for say, two to three weeks, perhaps? Then she wanted take picture for memory sake. Today was frigging busy. I dont like it at all. It makes my legs all wobbly. And the strange thing is, i will only feel it when i got home. Sigh.

Currently, im chatting with Pranata the prata / the ratata/ the banana. He's a friend from my workplace. A very good friend. He's the first guy i made friends with when i started working pastamania. Harhar. We can like connect well sia. We can talk totally random stuff and will just flow together. But dang. He's gotta go Indonesia for three weeks. No lunch partner anymore. "Aik. Since when i got eat with you", he said. Hahah. I always ask him to have lunch with me, but never did. Bad timing uh.

Hahah. Just now right, Jorge told me to arrange the condiments neatly. So I did what he told.

Jorge: Eh you better do properly ah. Wait you kana fuck by Chen Pei, not my problem.
Me: Yah lah.

Jorge: I give you warning. Aku suka kaw, tapi tak suka kaw.

Me: Haha. What talking you bodoh? Hahah. You dont talk cock with me.

Jorge: HAHAHAH.

What he's tryna say is that he dont want me to get scolded since he treats me like a friend. Haha. Gila sia tu anak. He's like the most annoying but funny guy i ever met sia. Thanks to him, i got alot of nicknames there. Blur, Lesbo/Lesby, Stripper, Pelacur. Yeahh, all thanks to him. Hahah. Nehmind lah eh. I can take jokes. I can laugh together as long it doesnt involve any harsh comments about my family, especially my parents. A sensitive subject to talk about rightt. Moving on, and because of Jorge's big mouth, like half the staff thought i like Ah Hao.

Me: Eh Ah Hao, you dont have tattoo ah?

Ah Hao: Yah i got ah. I got your face as my tattoo what at my back. Hahahah.

Me: *Give him the look* What only. Haha.

Then came Jorge.

Jorge: Syafiqah, why you stare at Ah Hao? I know you like Ah Hao right.

Me: *smile* Anyhow siaaa you!

Ah Hao: (speaks in chinese) I never had a girl like me before lei. Hahaha.

Me: Ehhhh, wo pu si huan ni! (I dont like you)

Ah Hao: Ni tong wa shuo si mo? Wo paiseh ei. Hahaha. (You understand what i say? Paiseh eh liddat)

Whenever ppl say i like someone, i confirm will smile oneee. Haha. Him & his big mouth uh, wtheck. But no doubt, i find Ah Hao cute. Hehhe. Chiow.

2010-02-02T22:46:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, had an outing with Shawal, Taufeeq, Hady & two of my gfs - Nabilah, Nadirah. Luckily that Afiq didnt come. Or elseeeeeeesxzs.. hahah. Gerammm! So anyway, planned to watch a movie at cathay. Buuut then, shawal, being so fickle-minded decided to watch them at vivo instead. On our way to vivo, coincidentally saw Atyra and Naw alighting the same train as we took. They're heading to somerset. So, we didnt get to meet up ): Upon arriving at vivo, we had our lunch at Banquet. Had chicken rice and dark chocolate. Yummeh! Afterwhich, bought the 7pm tix to My Ex. Since we got plenty of time left, we decided to chill out at the rooftop. Talk talk, laugh laugh.

So this movie is about a guy having secret relationship with another woman. He broke up with his ex and then his ex got into an accident. I think you can already guess whats the story line already, right. Haha. I would rate 3.8 out of 5 (:

Right after the movie, the three dudes wanted to explore the mansion at Henderson waves. Phew, the flight of stairs we had to take was damn long. And we had to ASCEND the stairs okay. Sheesh. The dudes were walking so damn fast and it was hard for me & nad to catch up. It was frigging dark and we barely see anything. So we had no other choice but to just walk and follow the dudes infront. Nanti lost peee. Once reached, Nad & Nab waited outside while me & the dudes explored the mansion. We couldnt get in. Haha, but thank god uh. The mansion looks creepy enough. I was already pinching their arms, scared that they will leave me behind if they saw something strange. Mana la tahu. Lelaki2 action only. Tapi bila da nampak, tak ingat apa apa. Terus lari ajaaa. Hahahahh. So anyway, we managed to only explore outside the mansion. Shawal said when we were there, theres a sudden strong wind at our area, like as though it indicates to us that we should not even be there. Ntah eh. Haha. Damn scaryyyy! Then theres this one time i forgot why we all started running. Shawal sprained his ankle while walking and the rest of us left him behind. Hahha. Shawal called Hady for help, but Hady cabot dulu. Kurang asam kan tu anak. Haha. Afterwhich, we head home. All of us except Nab 65-ed home.

Woke up late for work today. But luckily it was Arkar who managed the restaurant, not Eric. I dont know why, but i love today's work. Haha. I loike it.

Anddddddd, today something unexpected happen. Someone just confesses his love towards me and wanna ask me out. Haiyaa. So i told him, if wanna go out liddat2 can uh. But if he expects me to return his love, i cant. And his only reply was 'thanks'. Haiya. I dont want to make things awkward between us, so i guess i'd better leave him alone for now. Sorry friend.

2010-01-31T11:57:00.005+08:00

Sunday outing with Mdm Sharifah cancelled. Not many people were able to make it. Sad sia. Postpone it to Thursday, i think. She's treating the A1/A2 f&n students to a western cuisine. Cant waittt~

Okay, this is a serious shit. I have to/must blog about what happen yesterday at work. Damn bloody auntie! Her job at Pastamania is pretty simple. When the tray's full, bring the tray full of plates to the sink and wash them. Just that. But, dia macam sial. When she got free time, she will go down and smoke/drink whatever and took her own sweet time to get back. In the meantime, the tray was already full with plates. So we had to do her job for her. Bring in the tray to the sink. Even Aidil did that job for her. And, yesterday the tray was already full. So me & nad cleared the dishes and wanted to put it at the sink. She even told us 'If theres a stack of plates, put them straight into the sink'. Me & Nad did just that. And you know what happen? She screamed at us saying 'Put the plates outside!' Pukimak nye perempuan. Hahhahahaha. Kan aku marah! Pekik depan semua orang pula tu! Cb sia. Two of us just kept quiet and put the plates aside.

While i was washing the cheese bottles, Ah Soon, Ah Hao and Abg Sham listened to my rants. Hahah. They can still laughed and joked around when i finishing talking. Ntah eh. That auntie must be drunk nowadays thats why she got no logic. I dont want to talk to her ah next time. Silap silap berbual, kene pekik lagi. Pfft!

I got a pimple ah siooool. Its getting bigger. The cooks already spot my pimple yesterday.

James: Hie, what happen to your face?

Me: What? Why? (i forgot i had a pimple)

James: That one uh. *point at my pimple*

Me: Eh, so obvious meh?

James: Ya la. Very big. Finally growing up.

*James & Ah Hao laugh.*

Me: -.-

By the way, have you guys watched this movie? This is a very good movie. I cried four times! This movie is about history and democracy stuff. People in that country willing to sacrifice their lives for that one man they dont even know but whom they trust he will be able to revolutionize and bring peace to China. Whenever a hero died in the movie, i cried. And i loike the leading character. He's the same person playing the role Ip Man. Quite cute. Hahaha. Siol.

Zoo Fest.

2010-01-29T09:54:00.007+08:00

PICTURES ARE NOT IN ORDER.

Will upload the rest of 'em sooon.

2010-01-24T19:10:00.009+08:00

Mom snapped this picture for us ^^

Saturday, 23 January 10;

Both me & nad worked from 6 to 11. So before that, i invited her to my crib. Im boredzzxss. Played lappy and chatted. Andddd both of us plaited our hair to work that day. Haha. Cute kann. So gedebak gedebuk, after work, chilled for awhile with Chen Pei & Aidil. Chen Pei kept on ____ me. Haha, uncomfortable! Then, she pointed at me. I dont know what came over me that i actually bit her finger. Haha. Violent eh. We're playing uhh. Then i got to know, her finger bleeding. Siool uh, i gotta apologise to her sia. My big boss/crew leader you know! I bit, she bleed. Haha. And the other day i pinched Aidil's arm till blueblack. Sad sia. Hahah.

Today;

Family and i made a trip to the zoo. There's some kind of family event we had to attend. Fuhhh, punya lah penat! Dah lah semalam balik lambat, hari ini kene bangun siang. Soo yeahp, no choice. All for the sake of my family. Heh heh heh. There, we played some activities. I only played the human football and the hockey game. Heh, we even took picture together with the young lions. Ahhh *melt*. Hahha. The event ended at around 1:30 pm and we went off snapping pictures of the animals. Actually wanted to take the elephant ride, but dangg Dad wont allow us. He said the tickets were too expensive. -.-' So overall, i guess the outing today was fun and meaningful (:

I will upload all the pictures as soon i i get them from my bro's camera okay. Till here. Chiow.

2010-01-21T22:00:00.004+08:00

Hanzxs recommended this funny video to me. Haha. Thanks ehh! This video is one funny shit. You guys have to watch. It'll really crack you up (if you understand uh).

Maybe this might help you readers to understand what his jokes are all about.

Tenacious = Tennis Shoe.
Persuading= First Wedding.
Associate= I Saw Shit.
Chicken Nut Bread= She Cannot Breathe.

HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Understandddd? HAHA.

2010-01-20T03:00:00.008+08:00

I just gotten these pictures. It was during scrubbing. And i got alot of stupid faces, thanks to them.

Hahaha. Aidil cui cui.

Hey. I know ive not been updating my blog regularly. Im super lazy to update siaaaa. And also, if i update this blog of mine regularly, stalker shawal nanti active. Hahah.

So anywhaaay, check out the time. Yeahpps, i cant sleep. I even had a cold bath, thinking that i will be sleepy after getting a shower. But instead, it revitalises and refreshes me. Hahah, apa aku bobal. And shawal pulak, halfway tidur. Kurang asam nya tua. I miss gfs luhh. When are we gonna have an outing together? I miss each and every one of you siaaa. Plan an outing soon okay! I miss taking pictures with you guys siool.

Keh, so currently chatting with fariz a.k.a fat boy. He's bugging me to blog about him. Heheh. So there, you satisfied? XD, He cant sleep cause he got bitten by mosquito. Pathetic kannn. Wahaha. I bet he's gonna stuff satay in his mouth until he falls asleep. Lol.

Kehhh, got to go now. All these typings is making me feel sleepy. Lol. Goodnight / Good Morning!

hip hip hooray!

2010-01-11T21:54:00.005+08:00

(Very) Early in the morning, accompanied my dear friend to commonwealth to retrieve her pastamania uniform. Nad punya la confident - she said she know wheres the clinic. But in the end, we got lost. So, we decided to hire a taxi but that taxi driver, in turn, dont know how to get there. Naseb dia tak amek advantage tau! He told us to pay $2.80 for the fares when the actual fare was $5+. Keh skip. Aft nad collect the uniform, we went back to my house and ate. And off to school, to collect my results.~

Do you know who checked my results for me? Mr Singh, the big boss of our school. Yeah. He checked for me and told me that i made it to Polytechnic. Whoa, im really proud to hear that. Hahha. Im even eligible for the AMS course that i intended to take in Temasek Poly too! Haha. Well, i guess you can say that im pretty shock that the results turn out to be that way. Cause honestly, i didnt study hard and revised my work like i should be during the o's. I could still watch korean dramas on the actual day of my science and f & n papers. (But i did study a lil though). Wasnt that a stupid thing to do? And oh, on the day of my social studies paper, i slept at almost 4am, trying to memorise the whole topics on Iraq-Iran war, Venice, Sri Lanka&Northern Ireland . Atlast, all of those topics didnt came out for essay. Not even one. I was so annoyed. Imagine yourself study & memorise like fcuk and you came to know that in the end your efforts was meaningless. Hahaha. That, i will never forget. Ever! Oh well, i never like humanities anyway.

So anyway, i got 20 points for l1r4. Its not really that good nor that bad. Its average. But nonetheless, syukur alhamdulilah. God had certainly help me alot on this one. Im thankful for that. Just when i stepped out of school, afiq zul, andika, hanz, chen pei, hafiz j smsed/called me asking about my results. Lol. So sebok. I made a trip to my grandparents house since they wanted to know my results.

Keh, i wanna select courses now. Adios!

Cheer up guys. Its really sad to see you guys like this. Be positive. There's still more to life and other routes to take. Dont give up! I'll be rooting for us.

2010-01-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

Bunch of female teenagers (chinese) walks in Pastamania..

Me: Wah, they all pretty sia.
One of the Cook: *Look at them and raise his eyebrow* Yah.
Me: Pretty right?
One of the Cook: Yah. But i think you more prettier uh.
Me: Huh? What? Serious uh? Hahahaha. *Laugh away*

Hahahah. Ignore above. Miang. Hahahh. I had a massive headache when at work just now. So i told Arkar (manager) i got a terrible headache and i wanted to buy a panadol at giant myself. Instead, he bought it for me, using his own money. The whole box somemore! Haha. He gave me garlic bread and some milk to fill my stomach before eating the panadol. See, caring siaa. Ive got a bunch of friendly staffs. Damnn, i dont want to quit this job. Im having so much fun with this job. Sobsob.

Tmrw offday. Will be going with gfs to temasek poly open house. Me & Nad will head down to my workplace afterwhich cause Nad finally got a job at Pastamania and i will accompany her for her interview. Wooopie! Cant wait for her to start work. Heheh.

My head's spinning again. Gotta go.
Will only update when i get my results on Monday. Till then, take care dear readers.

annoying.

2010-01-06T22:43:00.004+08:00

I dont know uh. She's been getting on my bloody nerves, asking me to comment her pictures. This was not the first time, im telling you. This has already been the fifth time! Seriously, i dont like girls being so vain like that. Walaoway.

2010-01-06T12:28:00.011+08:00

Hey. I guess i should do a proper update this time round since i got the whole day to myself. Ive been leaving my blog dead for quite some time now (only four days). My fingers are itching to type, but i dont know what. Okay, lets just start with the Miss-List, shall weeeee. Hhahahaha.

From 2 harmony. Form Teacher: Ms Nadira.

To 3 Diligence. Form Teacher: Mr Kelvin Lau

To 4N3. Form Teacher: Mr Kelvin Lau.

To 5n1. Form Teacher: Ms Tan Sei Hui (was also our form teacher in sec 1)

Out of a sudden, i miss school. And since school had already started, it makes me miss it even more. I miss wearing the shitty uniform. I miss studying and learning. I miss solving maths problem sums. I miss Mr Chang Ching (haha, seriously.). I miss copying. I miss the scoldings we had from teachers. I miss detentions. I miss physical education. I miss running around the field (not that i miss 2.4km). I miss playing captain's ball and soccer with my classmates. I miss memorising social studies notes that Mdm Azizah gave. I miss hearing Mr S's crapzxs (figure out who). I miss (skipping) remedials. I miss my friends, especially girlfriends.

Sobsobsob. Speaking of which, i heard that Monday is gonna be the release of the O level results. Ahhhh. Scary nye! Haha. Honestly, the more i think about it, my goal of getting to Poly seemed harder for me to achieve. Its like after travelling quite a mile, a huge rock appeared laying infront of me and because of which, I cant resume my journey. And that huge rock is my results, of course. So ive got no choice but to U-turn and take another route- a longer route. ITE. You guys get what i mean right? Ahahahahahah. Thats how im feeling right now. Imma just hope and pray that its not gonna turn out the way i described.

Ive been a workaholic lately. Ive been working say 4, 5 days every week. My schedule that the manager gave was a hectic one. Since school has started, i was needed to do full shift. Like 12 pm to 11pm, 12 pm to 9 pm. Wha. Boleh pengsan lor. Buut, at the end of the day, its all gonna come down to one thing - SHOPPING! Hahaha. Im really in need of cash to buy a new phone. My current phone sucks big time. Anddddd, i dont know whether i wanna still work or not when school's reopening. I dont want to quit this job. Fun siaaaa. The staffs there are all friendlyyy~ Alah, see how it goes uh.

Keh, wanna watch korean drama. Watch watch watch while i still can can can. Chalobeteh.

2010-01-02T10:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Im not gonna talk about what happen in the night of New Year's Eve. So sianxzs. Cant even see firerworks. Sobsob.

Haha. I know its late to talk about it here. Im waiting for the clock to strike 11.10 exactly before i can go out and wait for the bus. Because the bus will arrive anytime between 11.15 to 11.25. Hehhhe. Step observant only eh. My schedule's today is 12pm to 11pm. Wah piang eh. They want me to die i guess. Lol.

Afiq Zul keep coming to my workplace and annoys the fuck out of me. Knncb. Hahaha. Irritating you know. He kept calling me tiger woods because the uniform im wearing is like as though im playing golf. Whaaaat only. Hahah. The interesting part is that my colleagues, Bella & Hidayah knows him. Such a small world.

Okay got to go now.
Apape msg. Hahhaha. Keh chiow.

dayout.

2009-12-29T12:33:00.032+08:00

Re edit: 12.47 am.

Phew. Believe it or not. It took me 4 hours to upload all these pictures in my blog. I didnt upload everything though. Heh. So whatever.

Yesterday had an outing with Nab, Nad, Afiq, Shawal and his two friends - Taufiq (a.k.a sheikh) and Hadi.

Meet them at 3.30 at bedok platform. Trained down to somerset. Had our lunch at KFC. Wanted to watch Sherlocks Holmes at cathay cineleisure but not available. So we head down to Shaw House. Movie not available too. So decided to watch them at Iluma @ Bugis. We get the very front row seats. Pathetic isnt it. So yeah, after movie had a shisha-ing session. My very first time shisha. Played bluff with the guys and took some pictures. At about 1130 pm, we head home.

This is just the summary of what we did yesterday. Cause im not really in the mood of blogging. Haix. Bye readers.

2009-12-27T16:02:00.009+08:00

Hey hey hey. I woke up super early today. Around 10 am. Isnt that early? Well, for me it is. Cause i slept at 4 am yesterday. Syakirah woke me up, asking me to have breakfast with her at Eunos together with our parents. I had no choice but to accept luh kan. So after eating, we head to Bedok interchange and Tampines Mall to shop for sister's necessities.

Keh wanna sleep now.

boring.

2009-12-24T11:59:00.003+08:00

Im not in love or anything. I just put this up cause i find it kinda cute. Haha. Damn it, boring sia. No one's online yet. No one wants to talk to me. No one wants to chat with me. Sobsob. Ahaha. Pathetic siaa.

This is oneeee random boring post. Im working later at 5 till closing. I hate friday & saturday schedule. Friday: 12 to 9. Saturday: 5 to 12. They said must scrub the whole restaurant. I dont get what it means la but i know its gonna be damn tiring. Haha. Boleh mati siaaaa -.- Takpa takpa. Tahan aja. Imma get use to it after a month working there ^^

Damn it siaa. I will only get my pay next month. Haha. Pathetic sia. Haiyo. Im so broke right now. I got a pimple on my forehead. Siaaak, da macam thiam. I wanna watch avatar again. Best luh the movieeee. & the post's not really well-organized eh? ARGHHH AKU BORING! Hahaha.

Chiow dulu.

avatar.

2009-12-23T11:15:00.018+08:00

Work was terrible yesterday. It was my first time being a greeter. Im so lost at doing it.

1) Hi. Welcome. Here's the menu.

2) We're currently having a promotion. Purchase $10 and you'll get a stamp. You can stand a chance to win free items here.

3) The soup of the day is cream of chicken and minestrone soup.

4) If you have decided, please place your orders at the cashier. Thank you.

Wah. Banyak songeh kan. Step the customers want to listen only! Hah. Before i can finish all the four steps, they might already be sleeping. Hahahh. Keh bedek bedek. Exaggerate. Yesterday, Edwin, our trainee manager in the head office came down to look at us part-timers doing our job. He's so friendly laa. He gave me good tips and advice. After observing & stuff, he gave me only one cross even though he knew i sucks big time. The other newbie, too, got one cross. But i thought he was more alert & attentive than me. Heheh, must be because of my smile that i get only one cross. ^^

So aft work, i trained down to city hall with Nad. Nab backed out last minute due to some miscommunications. Sorry babe. Fathima & Naw werent able to make it. So, only the four of us - Me, Atyra, Nad, Siti. Yeap. Watched Avatar. The movie was awesome shit man! I love it, i love it. Would rate it 4.6 out of 5! Heh. Aft movie ended at 9, we had our dinner at Macs. I saw FHAMY ~ Oh, he's my primary schoolmate crush. ^^ He was surrounded with angmos & chinese ppl. I think he saw me. But he didnt acknowledge me. Jahat seh. Lupa kan orang melayu kita peeeeee. Rabakzxs. After dinner, head down to esplanade rooftop and camwhored. Went back home afterwhich.

Im so hating a guy right now. How can he say he treats her like one of his ex-gf? I mean , if she's like your ex-gf, might as well patah balik dgn ex kaw kan buduu. She's not even abit close. She's not easy like your ex gfs. She's decently innocent. Get what im saying? After i point out your mistakes, relek aja ckp 'Simple. I wont contact her anymore'. Kaw takda hak budu nak ckp gtu. Kaw da bodoh kape? Otak kaw sakit sial. You took advantage of her. If someone were to say that, that would be her not you. Lepas tu belit belit kan cerita. You're full of nonsense sia boy. Tunjukkan belang kaw suda keh.

Happy.

great speaker.

2009-12-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

Part 1.

Part 2.

Hip-Hop Hell.

Shawal dude suggested these videos. I must say, i was really scared to watch it at first. You know, the feeling of guilty and stuff. Well im sure everyone have that guilty conscience right. Yeah. So eventually i watched it and its really good. Whats even making me feel more guilty is that he was a christian before he decided to convert into a muslim. Yet he knows so much more than us. Haiz. Sobsob.

2009-12-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

Haha. This made my day.

hear me rant.

2009-12-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

Penaaaaaaaaaaaat ! The most tiring day ive ever had. Yesterday, i slept at 3 in the morning. And 7.30 am on the same day which is also today, i woke up and head down to Commonwealth to be jabbed & collect my Pastamania uniform with Nad. And just look at the scorching weather. It makes one angry easily. But i cant blame that. I was planning to sleep the whole afternoon after I got back home today. Suddenly, my manager called and told me to come down to work today. Whaaaa? Last minute? I wanted to reject at first because i hadnt prepare anything yet. I was nervous at the same time. Somehow, i summoned all my courage and sacrificed my sleep just to work. I only had 4 hours of sleep. Not only that, i had to work till closing. That means, i had to sweep, mop, wipe the windows, tables and chairs. Punya lah penat. I stood there for about 5 hours straight. Kaki macam nak tercabut. Sumpah aku tak bedek.

Keh ignore that. Hows my first day of job? Well, manager put me together with Xin Xing. I think she's from China. The way she speak..uhm. Like for example ladder, she pronounce it as Ladaa. And clamp, she pronounce it as Climp. Aiya. Confusing. Aku iyer kan aja loh. Okay, so apart from that, i learnt alot today & made pretty nice friends. But i also made many mistakes. Pinggan mangkuk semua berdebam berdebum. And ohh yah, the name of the malay manager i talked about in my previous post is also Aidil. Heh. Coincidence. Yada yada.

2009-12-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

Second post for the day. Chatted with Nad. Macam orang gila aku ketawa. Hans is a guy, for your info.

2009-12-10T19:59:00.005+08:00

Hello hello hello! Like finally one job needs us (me & nad). Got a call from Pastamania and we had to turn up for a short work briefing. Went there, and i was told that i have to start training next week. Nad has to start the week after. Nervous nyaaaa. Furthermore, my trainer's a 20+ year old malay guy. *Gulp* Im not used to working with old old guys. So tommorow i have to head down to Jalan Kilang to be jabbed & collect my uniform.

Oh, Pastamania's uniform looks sooo shitty. Yellow uniform, black bermudas with above-ankle socks & black pastamania cap. Hahah. So mengarot. Nevertheless, syukur alhamdulilah (:

Lepakzxs.

2009-12-03T20:52:00.009+08:00

No way. No way! NO WAY !! Someone just frigging reboot the computer and now my pictures are all gone! Just like that! Ahhhhhh! Stress nyeeeeee. All those memories of my friends and i since sec 1 ~ Sobsobsobsob.

Anyway, we had a lepaking session just now. Chilled, played monopoly and uno. Harhar. We're easily bored nowadays uh. Haiya.

Btw i like this guy below. His name is Jang Geun Suk. So cuteeeee. Korean & Japanese guys may looked girlish + gayish at the same time but omg they're hot. Uhuh ! Hehh. Told you im addicted to kdramas. Stop it sia syafiqah.

flower girl

2009-12-02T20:16:00.019+08:00

Feeling flower girl.

Credits goes to Wan Nadirah Bte Rosli ! ^^

Gfs planned to meetup at Bedok Reservoir Mac to play uno. Hahaha. Unfortunately, most of them cancelled last minute when me & nad were already getting ready to go out. So i suggested to go ahead with the outing with only Nad.

Bedok Town Park --> Chill & take photos--> Bazaar --> Chill. Heh, thats basically what we did.

white chrysanthemum

2009-11-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

Alamak! I cant seem to edit the pictures we took at the lappy la Nad. We took loads and loads of pictures using the lappy but all of it seemed dark. Haixzs. I guess we wont be needing those pictures anymore eh since its so dark that we cant even see our own teeth.

So, earlier on, me & nad tried for an interview at fish&co tampines. Lol. Kita kan, cuba satu dua interview then balik rumah. Alwaysss like that. Haha. Well this time i did my best at the interview. But because of this, i got robbed of one of my family secrets. Shh. Still, no regrets. If the manager did not call me, i really dont know what to say. Haha. Rabaksxz. So we round the whole tampines area, trying to find suitable jobs but cant unfortunately. & at last, we head home. My home.

On the way there, we were teased with some maaaats while queing for bus 65 at the interchange. Tsk tsk tsk. No life ah they all. One of them even asked me ' Dek, highlight rambut kat mana?' Got guts ehh. Haha. But ive no guts to talk back uh. He had a bunch of friends behind him whuat. Hahaha. Lek lek. Nad was the worst victim of all. She was nudged by one of the maats. Hahohehu.

So basically at my house, we just chilled & play lappy. Nothing much happened except that my mom kept on teasing Nad. Kesian tengok dia. Kena teased with mats, then kena teased with my mom at home. Tsk tsk. Keh i wanna start playing facebook. And guess whuat. Ive deleted tagged. Lol. Pathetic.

And yesterday night..

Fariz: kau nak keje kt mrt? $8/hr
Me: huhh, mrt? rabak pe.
Fariz: ah2, tk rabak sgt la..basic maths is all u need...nk tk? Isi minyak mrt? Its gd money, u know...
Me: eee. tknk ah. macam kerja lelaki aje.
Fariz: Hahas...Mrt mane pkai minyak ^^ hahas...
Me: you ass!! hahaha. that was a good one.

Haha. Blardy ass. Give you white chrysanthemum then you know.

2009-11-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

Ive made new tagged and already feel like deleting them. -.-

Its so troublesome and most people said its for m&ms.

Well, see how it goes eh.

Need something to keep me occupied.

Will be making facebook soon.

& again, see how it goes.

Mini Celebration / Stalkaas

2009-11-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, i highlight my hair. It kinda sucks a little cause the colour looks like as though im from a repz family (m&m). But come on, i dont have the minah look righttt so its okay. My face is too innocent to be one. Haaaa. Kan lyndah kan? Hoho.

Finaally, the BFF outing. Almost every picture are up. Warning: I got a lot of stupid face inside those pictures. So bear with it! Harhar. We were planning to celebrate Nab's, Naw's & Atyra's birthday since last week, but siti couldnt get out of the house. So we postpone it to today. & oh, its not that because all three of them had the same birthdates that we're celebrating it today. Its just that their birthdays happened to fall on the same date as the O's exam. So understand understood keh!

First off, dined at Brinda's; Indian Restaurant. At first i thought it was Brenda and i told Nad it doesnt sound so much like an Indian Restaurant. Harhar. Thats when i looked at the spelling of the restaurant and sounded like one. So anyway, I had Egg Masala Tosei and it was superbb i tell you! Heh. After eating, I accompanied Fathima to go to the toilet. Heh. Well actually the plan was to buy a cake for them. So yipidiyapida, came back with a cake and celebrated at the restaurant itself. ^^

Next stop, the henderson wavesSsSsS. Huhu. I never knew there was even a place called henderson in singapore -.- And the bridge looks so much like a DNA structure thingay. K whatever. We had to climb flight of stairs to reach to the bridge. I was perspiring like a pig all over. I guess i managed to burn off the fats that i consumed earlier at Brinda's. Hehe. Yeah only that much. So took pictures and got stared/stalked by an apek. Move here, dia follow. Move there, dia follow. Rabakzxs. Atlast, we managed to shake him off. Moving on, so walk here walk there, pictures everywhere. Hehhh. Its almost 6 pm and we decided to head home.

But Nad thought it was a little too early to head home. Me & Nab agreed too. So the three of us windowshopped at Bedok. (even though there was no window) HAHA. Keh i thought that was funny. So anw, we were planning to have dinner at KFC. Then suddenly aidil's sister called me. Terkejut sekejap aku. So yeah, sat and talk with her for awhile. The topic was mostly about Aidil, duhh. Okay lets skip that. Mood can swing -.- Afterwhich, Nab left soon after because tmrw she's going out again. Andddd left with me & nad. Had a photo-taking & bonding session at the skatepark. While we're were camwhoring, this uncle kept staring at us. Weirdo. So we move away from him and he can even asked why we move away.

Uncle: Dek nak pergi mana tu? Assalamualaikum.
Me: Waalaikumsalam (no choice but to answer him)
(we moved away from him again and he followed)
Uncle: Dek, bleh kenal kenal?

Me: Tak boleh!

Uncle: Jangan lah macam gitu dek. Jangan malu2.

(Moved away and were still being followed.)

We were so scared and eventually went inside the skate park to sit with two chinese guys. Lol. Rabakzsz. No choice mah. And finally he went away. Gatal nya orang tua! Nak cari mangsa pergi lorong okaaaay! -.- Finally had our bonding session where we talked almost everything. Our problems, our future, our pri school days and even had a comment on the stars & moon -.- F oh f. HAHA. Its 10pm and so we decided to head home.

When I reached under my block, i alrdy had blisters on both of my feet. So i decided to take the lift, even though i stayed on the 2nd storey. Taboleh tahan! When i was about to close the lift door, this chinese guy came out of nowhere. I was shocked la. He was wearing a a cap and i was already getting suspicion from this guy. Imagination run wild. I scared he would molest or robbed me. Haha. So eksyenn2 take out the phone and talked 'Uh, nak ape ibu?' Then i walked out of the lift. Haha. Cleverrr right!

So that today's outing. Had a crazy day. Got stalked three times in one day.

oooooh, lost post! Haha. Goodnight readers.

Pop!

2009-11-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

Sorry to burst your bubble. But enough is enough.

p/s: above picture, ignore the text. Idk what else to write -.-

Smaaaack !

2009-11-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey ! Okay right now, im pretty upset with Aidil. I want to move on but how to when he wont let me? I know it sounds crazy but he's been waiting for me under my block almost everyday. Even my parents are upset. Urgh. Thatsss jussssst guyssss. Nevermind him. Smaaack in the head.

Early in the morning, i went for a job-search at Fish & Co loacted at Paragon with phyna. Phyna is my 3rd brother's girlfy for your information. Very pretty you know! ^^ My brother told me to work at fish&co cause he said the job is simple and easy. And phyna happens to work there. Soooo, i told her i wanna work over at her place. Once we reached there, i was only given some particulars to fill up. NO INTERVIEW. Cause manager was busy. She said she will give me a call soon. Ohh, im waitingggg beeeetsh. Im still waiting for the cinema job at Bugis. Heh, happy waiting syafiqah.

Also right, the workers at fish&co are super friendly you know. They were having their breakfast and they told me to join in. But i didnt la of course. Muka kalau tidak tahu malu, then can go. Lol. They talked to me and asked random questions like as though ive worked there already. Ha. Oh, how i wish i can work there. Buuut, i dont know the way there. Honestly, i dont know my way through orchard. I need someone to guide me through. I can go anywhere EXCEPT orchard. Pathetic righhht. But im not ashamed of my flaws. Heehee.

I really wish to get a job soon. I dont wanna use mommy's money already. Ive wasted enough. Unlike you you you you and you who seemed to be totally dependent on your parents. Shameless. Hahahah. Im talking to myself. Dont mind me.

Back to kdramaaaaaas ^^

Im Loving It

Class Chalet !

2009-11-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Love.

2009-11-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

Hello. I made a promise to be back at blogger after o's right? So here I am.
New Link, New Background for a brand New Chapter.

So, most of my friends know alrdy. Ive broken up with him. It seemed harder and harder for me to get along well with him day by day. He swore and he promised again & again. But that just wont work. He's still the same old him. Ive given too many chances aldy. This is what i call, 'Leopards wont change its spot'. Maybe its time i say goodbye to him. Oh boy. Im gonna be a single for a very long time, trust me. Well people, dont fall in love unless you want hurts. -.- Keh no. Dont take that advice.

I still love him though. You know, after all what we've been through together. Its still hard for me to let go of him. He can be nice, sweet and romantic at times. But at times, he can be a downright ass. Completely. I cant do this anymore. Its hard.

So dear you, i hope you can find a better girl than me. Who doesnt always use coarse language on you, who doesnt hit you, and who love you more than i did. Even though we're not together, we can still be friends. We can still contact each other. I'll cherish our memories. Take care. IveALY.